blog of a smelly hipster

I'm drinking liquor for the first time in months, possibly a year. For so long I've stuck to beer or wine, but tonight I bought a bottle of fucking Titos vodka, which could also be referred to as top shelf moonshine. I wasn't craving a mixer, I'm not throwing a party; I am so frustrated and fed up with my current situation that the only viable solution was a hard drink.

My job has driven me to drink, and I don't have an especially difficult job. I just get no job satisfaction, on any remote level. Today I just walked out 4 hours early because I just don't care anymore.

I tried to cheer myself up at home by watching Spaced with the commentary on. I watched all 14 episodes, plus the hour long documentary. I was cheered up for the time being, but when I turned off the TV and trudged up stairs, my spirits were dampened once again.

I'm becoming less and less like myself everyday. I'm going to end up hating myself if I stay there much longer.